Life pushes forward and invites me to change, evolve and unfold.
Asking me to trust that movement and call it good.
And what do I do?
I resist when the shower runs cold, when the babies wake too early or with fevers.
I resist when my feelings are difficult or when I can’t have my way.
I resist life on life’s terms because I’m afraid to call life good.
And because I am attached to an imaginary idea of who I am and who I am supposed to be.
Somewhere along the way I sold out to being in control.
I traded flowing for gripping.
I traded being for doing.
Loving for having.
Knowing for owning.
Today let me understand once again that life does not hold still.
Let me release the myth where I believe I can capture time, tie down Love, perfect myself, control others and bend things to my will.
Let me no longer fear life and it’s wildness.
Let me see the whirlwind and call it good.
For so long I have hidden, believed that forging ahead meant being alone, tried taming myself.
Tried taming life.
For so long I have pressed back against it with all my strength as if I could stop a swimming whale.
As if I could stop the churning, throbbing, propelling rhythm of the wildness of who I really am.
As if I could.
I believe you are more than your grief, more than your pain, more than your trauma. I believe life is good and that your burdens are bringing you gifts. Your true self may feel lost, but life offers x-ray goggles all along the way. I can help you find them. I can help you find yourself again.
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